I watched the proverbial sunrise
coming up over the Pacific and
you might think I'm losing my mind,
but I will shy away from the specifics...
'cause I don't want you to know where I am
'cause then you'll see my heart
in the saddest state it's ever been.
This is no place to try and live my life.
Stop right there. That's exactly where I lost it.
See that line. Well I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there. Well I never should have said
that it's the very moment that
I wish that I could take back.
I'm sorry for the person I became.
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to try and never become that way again
'cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.
I talk to absolutely no one.
Couldn't keep to myself enough.
And the things bottled inside have finally begun
to create so much pressure that I’ll soon blow up.
I heard the reverberating footsteps
sinking up to the beating of my heart,
and I was positive that unless I got myself together,
I would watch me fall apart.
And I can’t let that happen again
‘cause then you’ll see my heart
in the saddest state it’s ever been.
This is no place to try and live my life.
Who I am hates who I've been
and who I am won’t take the second chance you gave me.
Who I am hates who I’ve been
‘cause who I’ve been only ever made me...
So sorry for the person I became.
So sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I’m ready to try and never become that way again
‘cause who I am hates who I’ve been.
Who I am hates who I’ve been
2.11.07
yesterday evening / night.
goin to the bus stop yesterday with meng ren.. this girl approaches us. damn straigtforward. u wan buy pen for $2?. wud hav been ok if she juz left us. no. she ask us take out wallet show her. wth la. lucky i spent all my money alr.
today afternoon.
bishan MRT with danial. some guy from the samn pen company [ or whatever ] comes. rmb she was straightforward? he was not. starts some bullshit story abt drugs and the 'apprentice' show on TV. u tell me wad does TV got to do with charity. especially a show like apprentice. again, wud hav been ok if he left. fat hope. me and dan were like ' ok.. WAD THE HELL DO U MEAN BY TELLING US ALL THOSE SHIT' then ' oh.. u want us TO DONATE MONEY' the thing is...
1. no contact number or email or address given.
2. they DEMAND us to donate.. ask us to show wallet if u dont.
3. they hav no proper donation box or anythin.. u noe the box where it says SPCA eg.
4. blocks ur way if u try to go off w/o donating.
5. after u donate.. smiles and walkes off like nth happened.
6. says JESUS LOVES YOU like he has every right in the world to use that name.
i was damn pissed la.. Dan also.. he was like U THINK I WANT THIS PEN AH?? had 4 dollars in my wallet. now its gone. Dan had 10.
whatever.
goin to the bus stop yesterday with meng ren.. this girl approaches us. damn straigtforward. u wan buy pen for $2?. wud hav been ok if she juz left us. no. she ask us take out wallet show her. wth la. lucky i spent all my money alr.
today afternoon.
bishan MRT with danial. some guy from the samn pen company [ or whatever ] comes. rmb she was straightforward? he was not. starts some bullshit story abt drugs and the 'apprentice' show on TV. u tell me wad does TV got to do with charity. especially a show like apprentice. again, wud hav been ok if he left. fat hope. me and dan were like ' ok.. WAD THE HELL DO U MEAN BY TELLING US ALL THOSE SHIT' then ' oh.. u want us TO DONATE MONEY' the thing is...
1. no contact number or email or address given.
2. they DEMAND us to donate.. ask us to show wallet if u dont.
3. they hav no proper donation box or anythin.. u noe the box where it says SPCA eg.
4. blocks ur way if u try to go off w/o donating.
5. after u donate.. smiles and walkes off like nth happened.
6. says JESUS LOVES YOU like he has every right in the world to use that name.
i was damn pissed la.. Dan also.. he was like U THINK I WANT THIS PEN AH?? had 4 dollars in my wallet. now its gone. Dan had 10.
whatever.
31.10.07
boring day.
went with meng ren [ kor kor ] for lunch. then he too poor to buy food so i treated him lunch. and tt means? i am a kind guy. xD lent him my oblivion disc also then when he try to install and play dota at the same time his comp hang. so noob.
later i goin out with my family buy a van/car. it is a car but looks like a van. dunno wads it called. anyway, my dad say he wan take subaru impreze challenge. oO if he wins [ which is 1/379 percent chance ] he gonna sell the car and ill get $500. xD
bnet. avina copies everything i say. irritating. like a fat parrot. xDD
went with meng ren [ kor kor ] for lunch. then he too poor to buy food so i treated him lunch. and tt means? i am a kind guy. xD lent him my oblivion disc also then when he try to install and play dota at the same time his comp hang. so noob.
later i goin out with my family buy a van/car. it is a car but looks like a van. dunno wads it called. anyway, my dad say he wan take subaru impreze challenge. oO if he wins [ which is 1/379 percent chance ] he gonna sell the car and ill get $500. xD
bnet. avina copies everything i say. irritating. like a fat parrot. xDD
30.10.07
supposed to get my phone back after 14 days. today is day 18 and i dunno where the hell is my phone. I WANT MY PHONE BACK DAMMIT.
watch mr woodcock with meng sean bryan. ok la tt show.. only the storyline abit weird.. the small fat guy quite cute [ like me ]. lolz i forgot his name. then the metalcock guy [ i mean woodcock ] took the baseball bat thing and started to hit the PE boys in their groin. err cos they supposed to wear groin guard.. and that nice fat boy didnt wear his so... u get it.
movie ended 6+ then go j8 for lunch. discovered had no money left ): so eat chengtun for dinner. not hungry anyway. meng ren treat me arcade after tt. 2 games daytona and i go 1st place in both xD. nt i pro is they dunno how change gear.. haha
im tryin to find a new blogskin but my internet abit got problem zz...
watch mr woodcock with meng sean bryan. ok la tt show.. only the storyline abit weird.. the small fat guy quite cute [ like me ]. lolz i forgot his name. then the metalcock guy [ i mean woodcock ] took the baseball bat thing and started to hit the PE boys in their groin. err cos they supposed to wear groin guard.. and that nice fat boy didnt wear his so... u get it.
movie ended 6+ then go j8 for lunch. discovered had no money left ): so eat chengtun for dinner. not hungry anyway. meng ren treat me arcade after tt. 2 games daytona and i go 1st place in both xD. nt i pro is they dunno how change gear.. haha
im tryin to find a new blogskin but my internet abit got problem zz...
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