the day was okay. normal school... watched mulan 2 or sth in music lesson.

thanks for the ppl that talked to me in msn. was gonna post sth emo again but.. now i feel better (: so nvm.

thanks for the pic joie !

i hate people who put pics of their emo-ed hand or whatever on the screen. 2 things to say:

if ur really that emo u wont be showin off u wud be tryin to hide it more than anything else.

go see a doctor. and not those at the clinic.

so if u wanna be my fren on frenster and uve got pictures of ur poor and badly bruised hand, i wud probably leave a nice comment and reject (:

anyway, quite random today. saw a man with extremelyyyyyyyyyyyy low pants outside my school with his shirt not buttoned. thats okay, except that he wasnt wearin underwear so u cud see his hair. and im not talkin abt the ones on his head. :/

chocolate prata's nice. with milo dinosaur (:

okay. i smiled at home today. thats good.

i need a break from all this.
need to stop seeing you.
i juz cant get over it.
and my home feels so empty.
school is fake.
my laughter lasts hardly more than a minute.
no mood to do anything now.
listenin those alternative songs brought back a little more life in me.

i really hope this can be over... sigh. why cant i juz forget u and everything.. why huh. and the other one. u made me laugh yesterday.. maybe im gonna get along with u just fine after so any years... i hope so.

when i read sam's blog abt emoin at first.. i thot it was juz a make up. i thot emo was juz some imaginary thing that bored ppl made up. its not... its so real. it hurts really badly...

if u continue doin this i think i will die... hurts so much.

ashlyn's bulletin post made sense for the first time. guys really are more emotional than people take them to be... if any guy talks to you seriously... stop and listen.

love both of you

okay imeem closed down.

its okay. i hope it is.

do you really care? both of you.
i dont cry in school but that doesnt mean i dont at all.
im not askin for anythin much.
just dun keep me feelin like this.
since youth camp.
i saw that thing.
i knew it was real.
its not an illusion.
thaddeus said ask god to reveal it to you.
so clearly the words.
maybe we share the same... whatever u call it.
made me like this.

in samuel's form of sayin:

idnwtstycwisyicsa... irmysmticstau.. ummse.

dun bother findin out :)

im weird.
i dont fear death.
i dont know why i just think of when i will die.
and it doesn't seem scary.
at all.
maybe after what happened.
i know that i wont.
i still have alot to do.

im sorry if i hurt you. i juz cant remain as what we are and pretend nth happened. everytime i go to school it feels so plastic, cant understand you. maybe im thinkin too much and i should juz forget th whole thing... but i cant :)

i think u will like this song.